My Little Foot is pushing her bed time. Nowadays, she end up trying her hardest to be up till 9pm. An hour later than her usual bed time which she set herself months ago.
My guess is, maybe she just wants a few more minutes and a few more moments with me. For that, I am grateful.
Today, I missed her while I watched her play through the baby monitor. So near, yet so far… I could sit there and stare all day watching her go through all her toys, pulling herself to stand supported, but there is work to be done, and I want to quickly wrap it up and not do OT.
Every working mama goes through this. A sense of wistfulness, and also a secret prayer to the Big Guy Up there to not let you miss a milestone –“No, don’t take your first steps while I’m not there…”
When I used to have 24/7 with her, I didn’t really maximise the time we had together. Now that time together is a scarcity, there are times I rather not take my dinner till we’ve played and she’s fast asleep. Every morning, I keep saying to myself, “just awhile more…” before I have to peel myself away from her side.
I’m sure I’m not alone in this journey.
To my fellow full time working mummies, jia you!