Yesterday was the biopsy.

Too sudden to hit me too hard when I went through it. Dr Felicia was good at the work, and reassuring while we did it… and that helped.

As I walked down the hill back to my childhood home, back to my childhood bed after it, with only me knowing there’s a waterproof-plaster under my bra, I had a conversation with Him.

“God, I really want to be around to see my baby take his/her first steps… I want to be there for him/her… Please…”

Thank YOU… for hearing my plea. It was a moment of revelation, as I realised I am no longer living for me, but there’s someone I need to be around for soon. Our little baby-nim.

Today was such a rush of relief when the nurse finally called in the late afternoon to tell me the biopsy results. “Nothing to worry about… Not Malignant”. I had to just go “Woohoo!” all over whatsapp.

Thank YOU for hearing my plea really.

I will keep my word God, and lead this baby to know YOU.

Thank YOU!

Please forgive me if I went a little overboard with the indulging today, buying the shoes and bracelet. I really just want to remember this pivotal moment. I am a mother, and I have to be alive to see my baby grow up.

Please protect our baby, God. Amen.