Today is my last weekday as a SAHM. Come Monday, I will be going back to work. It is a bittersweet day for me.
I spent my late morning entertaining her while she playfully kept crawling over and tugging on my top.
Then I hit the gym. Last chance to go during off peak hours. Later in the afternoon, we went to Orchard to shop.
On my way to gym, I actually felt so many different emotions all at once.
This is it. 329 Days spent with my baby, and this chapter has come to an end. I am relieved – that all the minor issues detected at birth has been sorted out quickly. I am so proud of her – growing from 2.645kg to 8.6kg, and all the many milestones achieved in this nearly 11 months. I am blessed – that I was able to have a chance to participate so intimately and almost 24/7 in this whole period. I am sad, it’s breaking my heart, that this has to end.
Little Foot, please jiayou for Mummy. Going back to work is necessary, for you and for me, as I find my footing again in what I think I do best. Your naive mama continues to think that in her own little ways, she can make a difference to Singapore.
You have defined me as a mother over this whole period. Some days, I feel you are the teacher as I keep learning and relearning. You redefined life and its significance in a way I could never have understood before. I wouldn’t have had it any other way.
I hope our bond will always be strong. Thank you for being here and growing well.
I will always look back on this time spent together and replay all the little pockets of memories we’ve built in my head whenever things get hard or my breath gets short.
Remember, no matter what happens and how many years may have passed, mama loves you so much, and I always will.
Thank you for making this a home full of memories, thank you for coming into this world and being my daughter. You were all we hoped for and more.
Remember your newborn days…
your first Christmas at 20 days old… you were still so tiny…
your chubby little angel face just a day shy of 6 weeks old…
Your botak head look And signature frowny face…
Your “Summon Auntie” look…
your pursed lips look..
Your gummy smiles…
And even your cries. All a part of our fond memories.
I will miss this 329 days and will look back fondly…. so many memories imprinted in my mind.
Please continue to give me your biggest grin whenever I open the front door. I am sure it will wash my stresses and pains away.
I love you to the moon and back.
And … yes. It’s a wrap to my SAHM life.