Over the weekend, Little Foot turned 29 months.
I had the pleasurable challenge (read daunting situation) of being alone with her till late afternoon on Sunday when Papa went for wedding lunch and Aunty was on off day. Not the easiest kid to be with especially when dealing with a stomach bug (me) but we had some fun … music class as usual, picking out bread for ourselves (Baby chose a rainbow donut while I chose a Mentaiko covered baguette and a ham&cheese sandwich) then hanging out at my mother’s place where she is very familiar with.
We ate our bread and sandwiches, her seated in the baby chair, me beside her…
We had conversations revolving around the food, the weather, where Papa was, about “Papa Mister Moon, Mama Mister Moon and Baby Mister Moon” (a continuation from the night before when we pointed out the moon to her and she said it was a baby Mister Moon)….
I sang and played with her, at times sat aside and watched her play…
Finally, carried her in the carrier around the estate I grew up in and felt her doze off… went back upstairs, laid her down and watched her nap.
What I would give to watch her grow each day (each day that she isn’t hopefully throwing a tantrum).
And for the first time in a long time, I wondered whether I could ever handle another Little Foot.
Everyday, I am greeted with my floor to ceiling mirror in my living room covered with photos of Little Foot in her first year. Little Foot had happily pasted them all up. And whenever I’m wearing my shoes, working on something on my laptop, or having my dinner, I get a glimpse of how much she had transformed.
For a mummy who has so much strings attached to her one and only child, it is a bittersweet encounter each day. Some mornings, I kiss one of the photos before I leave the house. I love you, I said. As much as I love the you now, I love and miss the little you too.
Still, such thoughts are fleeting. We have so much to do with Little Foot and already so little time.
Once she wake up from her nap, all fleeting thoughts like this are out of the window. Gone like the wind.
“Come, Mummy! Runaway!!” ~ her cute little voice always rings in my head, even when I am busy at work.
And each time I hear it, I can surely say, I am ready drop my work and run with her, until my back doesn’t allow me to run no more.
And the rest? I will leave it in His Hands… as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be…
For now, one is still enough.